Quickie but goodie!
13 Sep 2011 1 Comment
in family, kids, my journey for all to see Tags: grocery shopping, lazy kids, picky eaters, spongebob
I picked Ty up from daycare yesterday and the first thing he tells me is “Mom…did you know that watching Spongebob makes you lazy!”. I’m looking at him and my daycare explains to me about a news report/study that had been done on how some cartoons these days cause the brainwaves of children to respond differently than other cartoons. I would totally buy into this….it would explain why every time Ty turns on Spongebob I’m falling asleep!
Ty and I went grocery shopping last night and before we went I asked him to help me make a grocery list. The first three things he told me we had to get were 1)Milk 2)Broccoli 3)Corn on the cob….yay! I couldn’t believe that it wasn’t 1)Ramen 2) Pizza 3) Goldfish….especially my picky eater of a son.
So once at the grocery store we decide to take a little detour through the seafood and meat department and looked at all of the products….even though we weren’t buying any. We had fun looking at the crabs, crayfish, octopus, squid—and yes he mentioned “Like Squidward” and then moved on to chicken, cow and finally the pork section. We made gross faces at the packaged snout, tails and tongue and I filled him in on how people use bone to cook. Granted we would never eat any of the packaged pork products, but it was fun to look at them.
Moving on to the remainder of our shopping experience, I ask him “What would you like for dinner?” fully expecting one of the answers that I thought he would give to my shopping list question. Once again my son surprises me with “I think spaghetti sounds good”…WHAT? Ok…who has kidnapped my adorable and smart son and replaced him with this smart, adorable child with a healthy appetite? I have been waiting for this day most of his life….I’m just hoping that this pattern continues!
It’s just like riding a bike … HA!
03 Jun 2011 2 Comments
in crazy talk, my journey for all to see Tags: dating, fear of dating
It’s been about 4 years…4 long long years since my last first date. Well, ok in about 2 months it will be 4 years. It was on my birthday; we went walking around Lake Minnetonka, got ice cream and then went out to see my favorite local band play. He got me flowers, a necklace and a card…yes that was a first date, all though we had “hung out” several times before that. And even though 2 years later the relationship ended, I still think of that as a pretty good first date…one that I would like others to live up to. Of course it doesn’t always have to be on my birthday and I don’t always have to be lavished with gifts…but hey I won’t object. About 2 years ago I went “out” with a guy when I was visiting friends in Colorado…it started as a group date and we just continued to hang out the entire time I was there. But that was easy…I was leaving back to MN and didn’t have to worry about what’s going to happen next. My next “anything resembling a date” after that was with a friend of MANY MANY years…and I don’t think that him tattooing me at a killer price, or us going with several friends to movies and bars constitutes as a date. There were a few times that we hung out on our own…but for the most part I held back on anything because of our past and my insecurities…and because of that I don’t even have him as a friend now. Most recently would be another old friend that I started seeing and then realized that I wanted more and he wasn’t ready (just coming out of a divorce) and really I was ok with it. It was nice, we would just hang out or go to dinner or bars, movies, concerts…it was definitely a short lived summer affair…but it was still nice. And so I find myself here…where I haven’t been for years…completely uncomfortable and scared to death. I really don’t know how to do this anymore, and I am not sure if it’s because I don’t know how or that I just don’t want to. While I’ve had a few “flings” since my last relationship ended 2 years ago, I’ve technically been alone…dateless….pathetic? Actually, if you want to go “PATHETIC” …I signed up for one of those online dating sites…and after about a week I lost complete interest. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I am very skeptical…to my knowledge EVERY guy on that site was lying on their profile and weren’t really looking for someone like my profile. They weren’t really interested in me, my family, my children, my work, my hobbies…no they were interested in how quickly they could get into my bed. Now I know that there are success stories for these websites …but I just don’t trust them. So how does someone who is scared to death, extremely skeptical and unable to trust start dating again? First…meet someone, right! And I have and I met him at the very last place that I want to meet someone. I wanted the universal romantic story of meeting him in the produce isle…we’re both going after the same bunches of bananas, or I pick a tomato and cause the rest to roll and he helps me pick them up…ya know all gentlemen like. No…where do I meet this guy … the BAR! And I was far from myself…I had taken an upsetting situation earlier in the evening and decided that drinking myself stupid was the answer. And then…there he is, great smile, wonderful eyes just jaw dropping, and I’m stumbling drunk. I do not drink (much) and when I do I’m the responsible drinker who only has a couple and leaves early…but not that night. No that night I had to be one of those stumblers and passer outers at the bar…UGLY. But strange as it may seem this guy was still interested in me…talk about getting lucky…it’s not many times that you get a 2nd chance at a 1st impression…well unless he likes his girls stumbling drunk?? Crap I didn’t even think of that till now! So I end up talking with him via FB a few times before 2 weeks go by and I get another chance to hang out with him. And this time it was his turn to be the drunk…he wasn’t nearly as bad as I was but there were a few things that irked me. I don’t need to go into detail because it really could just be about my own insecurities. We did get a chance to hang the next night too and while again he was drinking and I really wasn’t it was a little better. Now it comes down to seeing each other again…I texted him Tuesday while I was waiting for my daughter to finish with her softball photos (dude parents weren’t allowed in the room how stupid is that!!!) and asked if we could hang out some time while we were both sober. He jokingly replied, unlikely…but then said he was just kidding. He asked me when I was free, I told him and that was that…I haven’t heard anything back yet….and here comes the paranoia. So to wrap up, I’m A) paranoid that I have completely blew my chances with him B)thinking that if I haven’t it’s only cuz he want’s …well you know and C) completely terrified of getting involved with someone again for many reason (abandonment mostly).
I assure you, the flood may have us stranded, but we are still alive!
31 Mar 2011 1 Comment
in crazy talk, family, kids Tags: kids, piano, school, sports, surgery, video game addiction
Typing what I thought would be a quick email to a friend today I felt that I couldn’t shut up. Then I realized that A)It’s been forever since her and I have talked and B) it’s been ages since I have given an update to my lack of readers. So now that I have decided to provide an absent audience with an update …where the heck do I start?
KIDS:
Always a great jumping point…you either love em or hate em, even if you are their mother.
Amaya is growing up way too fast for me.
I can’t believe that this is my little [dark] angel (with upside down wings). She still plays with her stuffed animals, dolls and Barbies, but she’s into music, fashion, and so many other “tween” girl things. She’ll start playing softball here in a few weeks and at first I was put off on her playing only because it’s not something I enjoy, but I know she’s really excited and so I am too. She has to wear her hair back when she plays which I am excited about because it makes her eye’s pop so much more!
She’s not too happy here because we had to wait about an hour just to get food before we went into Nickelodeon Universe so we made her smile.
She’s also decided that come fall she wants to play basketball and be a part of the crossing guard. I’m excited that she is giving sports a chance, I want both of my children to try everything and find something that they enjoy that gives them the exercise that they need. She’s still playing the piano so our weeks are going to be very busy ones soon. She’s still an amazing little pianist which continues to assist in her ability to listen to quality music instead of crap. She’s recently acquired and iPod and now has music on them …mostly Taylor Swift…didn’t even realize that my daughter was a fan. It’s so weird to think that she is growing into a “young woman” …she’s my baby and the older she gets the more I feel like I’m going to lose her. This fall she’ll be able to stay home by herself before and after school, my baby can watch herself!!! Once she turns 11 in October she’ll take a babysitting course and then she’ll be able to take care of OTHERS…her brother included. I’m of course both happy and saddened by this because again it means my baby is growing up but it also means FREE TIME FOR MOMMY!!! Mommy might actually be able to join a gym, take a class or two and just maybe have a social life!
I’m getting off track…this part is about the kids, not mommy.
Tyson…my bubby,
how one little (and I mean little) boy can be so well mannered, polite, caring, sensitive and lovable and at the same time make me want to pull my hair out is beyond me. I will say that since his surgery (tonsils & adnenoids) he has been slowly getting better, but man that child really has a split personality. His addiction to video games is getting even worse and while I try to limit his time I know his father is not concerned in the least and it really bothers me. I have no control what he does at his dad’s house and that’s something that I have to deal with. This kid is so addicted that there are times he begs for his dad’s house just because he wants to play…and it kills me. But when he turns around and gives me hugs for no reason and tells me that he loves me bigger than the universe…well I forget everything and melt in his teeny tiny arms!
Back to his progress, the surgery was definitely the right thing to do. The doctor informed us that after they removed the adenoids they were surprised at how large they really were. Since then Tyson has been sleeping much better and his appetite and focus are starting to improve.
What a trooper he was…this is after the anesthetics started to wear off and vicodin started to kick in. Too many wires going in and out of this little man!
He informed me just a little bit ago that he wants to start playing golf, and I couldn’t be more excited. I love golf and I love that he wants to be involved with something that doesn’t have to do with the PSP, PS3, Wii, 360 or PC!!! Plus it will give him and his Papa (my dad) a chance to bond on something. Tyson already has a comic book addiction which unites them…they go through my dad’s toy collection and recent comic book additions, but now this is something that they can do together OUTSIDE!
Uffdah…yeah I said it. I really could type more but I’m thinking your eyes might hurt. Maybe I’ll do another update later today because there is so much more to tell!
Conundrum — How does a picky eater gain weight?
15 Dec 2010 1 Comment
in crazy talk, family, kids Tags: foods my son likes, picky eater, skinny kid
Don’t you just love a good Trivia question??? I’m dead serious…my 6.5 year old son is in the weight class of a 4-year-old and height of a 7-year-old. He looks sick, well he still looks absolutely adorable to me …but he looks like I’m starving him, which i am not.
Here’s what the kid will eat:
Cheese pizza, poor man’s pizza (tortilla, cheese and pizza sauce on the side…a staple in our house..takes seconds to make on a busy crazy afternoon) ramen noodles, chicken nuggets, french fries, goldfish (NOT the generic kind, we’re still fighting about this and he doesn’t get any real goldfish until the generic ones are gone or expire) wheat thins, Ritz crackers, Colby jack cheese sticks/cubes/shredded, spaghetti, green beans, steamed broccoli, chicken, mashed potatoes (baked if there’s enough gravy on them), grilled cheese, creamy broccoli tuna helper.
Thats about all i can think of right now, i did get him to eat a fresh spinach salad ONCE…that was short-lived. He wont try new things and if i force him to he’ll just make himself throw it up.
The other issue i have is that he’ll store food in his cheeks like a chipmunk forever. What would take someone 30 seconds to chew up and swallow (and i’m giving “someone” generous time) will take him 5 minutes OR MORE! I’ve set timers, but then I’m concerned he’s not getting full, so i let him sit there till his food is cold and its time for bath and snack and bed and blah blah blah.
The boy’s uncles and father are HUGE…not kidding, when i first met my ex-husbands brothers (ages 12, 14 & 15 at the time) i thought i was looking at three linebackers HUGE!!!! And here’s my petite little boy…who is extremely uncoordinated, clumsy beyond all belief and shows no interest in sports…who will fall over if the wind is too strong.
Now, i understand that boys can be small and then one day BAM…but i guess my ex-mother-in-law is getting worried and seeing that I still adore her and value her opinion (not only because she is awesome but because she is a LPN too) I am getting more worried
Does anyone know of anything i can get to mix with my sons milk that will fatten him up?? hehe…just kidding (sorta?)
We all go a little crazy sometimes
13 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
in family, kids Tags: blizzard, crazy behavior, son, wearing moms clothes
I love love love this picture of my son….it’s safe to say that the blizzard over the weekend made him a little crazy. He has on my sweater, sleeves rolled to fit his tiny body, and my hat, rolled to fit his tiny head…i looked and he’s on top of the bathroom counter just talking away to himself in the mirror…if you ask me he looks like he’s about to start running wild and rip things apart! 
Have I mentioned?
10 Dec 2010 1 Comment
in crazy talk, Friends, work Tags: mean people, work
I’m leaving this god forsaken group. Well, to be honest, the group is somewhat disbanding….and other than my boss taking up a new position 556 miles east of here, I couldn’t be happier. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate working with the people in my group? WHY YOU LITTLE!!!!
So there’s “the two faced bitch” which she clearly is, but it just doesn’t end there, she’s selfish and egotistical too. She’s the reason that I’ve begun to hate my job. What’s funny is when she first came over to this group we were friends. I praised her at how quickly she picked it up and was able to work on and take over accounts from a worthless employee who had been with the company for 5+ years. We were friends, we went outside and took smoke breaks together, swapped stories of our kids and exchanged information of crafts, sales, coupons and all that great mommy stuff. I got along with everyone here (ok except maybe SVB) and it was nice. We all laughed and got work done and had a great time. And then it changed….like almost over night, I became public enemy #1 and after many years of being ”Negative Nancy” and always feeling like everyone was out to get me…THEY REALLY WERE. “Tall freak” and I used to be close…we’d joke about a lot of things and had tons in common…then when ”Two Face” opened her mouth and decided that i needed to be put in check and treated like crap he wagged his tail and jumped on board. ”DJ Dude” and I used to hang out all the time…until he started becoming friends with my ex tattoo friend whom I basically told to go eff himself and never call me again so “DJ Dude” and i stopped hanging out and for a while he wouldn’t even talk to me it felt like. I think when we all went on Lake Minnetonka for our summer outing and i took care of his heat exhausted wife he might have changed his mind about me. And then there is newbie…well i just think he’s brain washed…I don’t think “Two Face” gave him a chance. That leaves “Nice Girl” …and she is, and we used to hang out and i bet if i asked she’d say yes, but i can tell she’s weary of what everyone will think of her…or nervous of all the questions they’ll ask. So I just walk with her to the lunch room…chat a bit here and there and removed them all (those that were “Two Face” and “Tall Freak” never were) from Facebook as friends and that is that. But working here…having to stay quiet because apparently all of my stories offend someone or annoy someone, having to drudge on and be un entertained by my peers which sucks. I’m beginning to think that maybe there really is something about me that people don’t like. Maybe it’s the fact that I dont gossip?? The people over here like to talk trash about everyone…and i dont…i think its rude. Maybe its the fact that I’m 30 and they’re (mostly) younger than me…or according to my mother it’s that they are intimidated by me because i am a single mother of two doing it all. Well whatever the reason i wish they would let it go…it makes it hard to work.
So i am looking forward to this merger/transition of our group with another. Those that i cant tolerate will be away from me and working with others and i will have new people to surround me that make me smile, laugh and enjoy my job. So here’s to a great New Year…with a great new POSITIVE start with a positive position within my company. I’m excited and just wish it would get here already!
The Joys of Misplaced Birthday Cards
29 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
in crazy talk, family, kids Tags: budgeting, money
Or in this case an E-greetings Birthday card that I couldn’t view at work because it was access denied so I completely forgot it about it until exactly 3 months later.
Last night at job #2 I decided to go to town on my inbox for job #1 and clean it out. I came across an email reminding me that i still had a E-Greetings birthday card from my mother that i had not viewed yet. Giddy over the fact that there are no “ACCESS DENIED” websites at job #2 I finally read this card…and it was exactly what I needed. I feel that there is always so much going on in my life, always chaotic and frantic and hectic and crazy and….well you get the point. I read this card from my mother …and the words that she wrote made me smile…they were words that I truely needed.
I have been so broke lately that I dont know how I am going to do Christmas this year. I think I might just get them Santa’s gifts for christmas and then tell them that they’ll get more gifts when we do our “family Christmas” after the new year. I love that we do our Family Christmas after the new year because I have more $$$ and everything is on sale …ITS AWESOME! So yeah…maybe thats what i’ll do? Problem one solved….this is why I like blogging, the only time I can really stop in my CHOATICFRANTICHECTICCRAZY life to really think and reflect
Yay for killing my last 45 minutes at work!
So lets solve problem #2…money, wait what that was problem #1? no that was just the christmas part of the money problem. I am working two jobs and i feel like i never see my children and especially never have any time for me…so how am I still so broke. I budget and plan and yet where I should have X amount of dollars left over every month for gorceries, gas and entertainment I end up having -X amount of dollars. I direct deposit up the WAHOO and have been so stupid and done those damn payday advance things where you are charged @ 200% or more of interest. I thought I would be saving more by my son going to school full time …no its only about $20/week …which yeah is $80 a month which is a cable bill, a phone bill, @3 tanks of gas or 2 weeks of groceries….but I’m not seeing the savings. Just looked at November and I am SHORT $$$ and December is projecting to only have about a weeks worth of groceries and gas left over after bills. Seriously people…WTF is going on here, its like the MORE i work the MORE i lose? How is this possible. I’m not going on spending spree’s or anything … I SWEAR! I really need to sell some stuff, games, clothes, plasma..ugh.
And now I am too stressed to think about any other problems, so the rant ends here. I can at least be happy with the fact that I get to go HOME in 10 minutes and not to my other job. I get to pick up my kids, have dinner with them and watch the Shrek and Planet 51 halloween specials while eating popcorn in my bed…and yes, this makes me ever so slightly happy and forget about the issue above.
Happy Halloween everyone!




















