I’m ending my relationship with Steven. Its too painful and heartbreaking to be his girlfriend. As much as I know he loves me I just dont feel it. I dont know if its me expecting too much out of him or the fact that he is just completely ignorant to what he is [not] doing. I love him dearly but I keep being let down, dissapointed and having my heart broken that soon this love will turn into hate and then that will be the end of anything. Its going to be hard [very] at first …but I think/hope I will get through it, and I really hope he does too. I hate that I have to leave him because I really do love him but i just think that he’s settling…or is just happy to be in a relationship but doesn’t want to really “work” on it or “committ” to it? I dont know if that is exactly what I am trying to say …. but he’s very cold, very closed, very NOT THERE FOR ME. He use to be, in the beginning, he use to tell me sweet nothings about how he felt about me and how I made him feel. He use to check in on me 8 million times a day to see how I am doing….and now [when i am sick] he doesn’t care…i fall backseat to everything else that is important in his life. I wish things were different, i wish that i didn’t crave his attention, love, affection, tenderness, emotional attachment ect… as much as I do or I wish he could actually provide me with all of that. Maybe…someday….sooner than later.
**NEVER EVER NEVER EVER WILL I LOVE THAT CHILDISH IMMATURE LITTLE PRICK FUCKER—-TALKS TO 17 YEAR OLD GIRLS WHO ARE STILL JUNIORS IN HIGH SCHOOL AND LIES TO ME ABOUT IT…LITTLE FUCKER. NEVER EVER AGAIN YOU PRICK BASTARD**
